Although I was nervous, I forced myself to go to my school’s LGBTQIA (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer, intersex, and asexual) club to meet other members of the community.
I was too scared to try to flirt with another woman face to face, especially in front of a bunch of other people, so I joined a dating site after learning many people in the club used them. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been turned down because of my POTS, like when a woman who previously texted me hundreds of times a day decided we should just be friends after I confessed my illness.
It stung each time someone stopped talking to me after finding out I was sick. If I feel unwell, I might have to cancel plans at the last minute.They prescribed me new medications and sent me to a cardiac clinic, where I exercised on a recumbent bike to build my physical tolerance.I also met other people with POTS for the first time in my life.This time, I was nervous because I hadn’t felt well all day.I felt dizzy, nauseous, and achy, my finger too swollen to put my ring on.