The cold sweat dripping from my forehead made it feel like I hadn’t even taken a shower.
Though I had considered canceling our date, I opted not to.
I could potentially faint without warning, forcing them to take care of me.
Sometimes I have to wear ugly monitors hooked up to my heart or head, or use my cane when I’m in a lot of pain, which draws a lot of negative attention. Maybe it wasn’t fair to judge people I’d just met, but I was tired of getting hurt.
Kaylyn knew about my illness, but she hadn’t yet seen it. And if I hadn’t changed my dating standards after realizing I was chronically ill, it could have taken so much longer to find someone like her. Diagnosed when I was 19 after a series of unexplained fainting episodes, I was referred to a cardiologist.
Right away, I knew things with Kaylyn were going to be different.Each changed how I viewed myself and how others saw me.I was no longer just Kelley and never would be again. These two major realizations in a short amount of time altered the way I approached dating.People hear the words “chronic illness” and often run as fast and as far as they can.It stung each time someone stopped talking to me after finding out I was sick. If I feel unwell, I might have to cancel plans at the last minute.